Hawak-Kamay by Yeng Constantino

I became a fan of Yeng Constantino when I watched this video.  Yes, I cry everytime I view it again. Happy birthday, Yeng. This is for you.

Hawak-Kamay
written and sung by Yeng Constantino

Minsan madarama mo kay bigat ng problema
Minsan mahihirapan ka at masasabing “di ko na kaya”
Tumingin ka lang sa langit
Baka sakaling may masumpungan
O, di kaya ako'y tawagin
Malaman mong kahit kailan

Hawak-kamay
Di kita iiwan sa paglakbay
Dito sa mundong walang katiyakan
Hawak-kamay
Di kita bibitawan sa paglalakbay
Sa mundo ng kawalan

Minsan madarama mo
Ang mundo’y gumuho sa ilalim ng iyong mga paa
At ang agos ng problema ay tinatangay ka
Tumingin ka lang sa langit
Baka sakaling may masumpungan
Di kaya ako’y tawagin
Malaman mong kahit kailan

Bridge:
Wag mong sabihin nag-iisa ka
Laging isipin may makakasama
Narito ako ohhh, Narito ako…

Sa mundo ng kawalan
Hawak-kamay, Hawak-kamay, Hawak-kamay
Sa mundo ng kawalan

Solitaire

Parang ako lang yung sinasabi ng kanta

Solitaire
by Clay Aiken

There was a man, a lonely man
Who lost his love through his indifference
A heart that cared, that went unshared
Until it died in his silence

And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself, it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire

Another day, a lonely day
So much to say that goes unspoken
And through the night, his sleepless nights
His eyes are closed, his heart is broken

And solitaire's the only game in town
And every road that takes him, takes him down
And by himself it's easy to pretend
She's coming back again

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire

A little hope, goes up in smoke
Just how it goes, goes without saying
Solitaire
And by himself it's easy to pretend
He'll never love again
Ohhh

And keeping to himself he plays the game
Without her love it always ends the same
While life goes on around him everywhere
He's playing solitaire
Solitaire, solitaire

Emo Mode Ako

Every time I sing or hear this song, I can't help getting emotional.  Because this song tells exactly the story of my life.  I did not have a good relationship with my father while he was living.  It's not that I had not loved him, but he did not love me.  Everything I did was wrong for him.  He didn't like me.  He did not like how I thought.  He did not like to hear what I had to say.  He did not give me the chance to express myself.  Everything about me was wrong.  I am not writing this to dishonor him.  I am writing this because I need to.  For myself.  So I can move on.  If I don't face this now, I know I will have to face this again in the future.

I grew up hating my father most of my life.  He was selfish and lived only for himself.  He did not provide.  He did not love.  He did not feed.  And add to that the verbal, physical, emotional, and psychological abuse that I received from him.  I started suffering depression when I was in my teens.  I didn't recognize it back then, but as I became more mature, I researched what I was going through, and how I can fight it.  I have been fighting it alone for most of my life.  I am not going to surrender.  If I would, I would have done a long time ago.  This is one of the reasons that I put up this blog.  I gathered in this blog the tools that I need to help myself.  I know someday I'm going to need help, and when I can find no help, I have this blog to turn to.  Me helping myself.  Because I just won't give up.  I will continue putting up a fight...with life. - Rence

Perfect

by Simple Plan

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?

And do you think I’m wasting my time 

doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud

I’m never gonna be good enough for you
Can’t pretend that I’m alright

And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud

I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t stand another fight

And nothing’s alright

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
And nothing’s gonna make this right again

Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes - Disney (cover)

Nice song, nice voice.  I instantly became a fan from the very first line.  If you liked his music, there's more here.

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you will lose your heartache
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come shining through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dreams that you wish will come true.

Light and Shade

This is one of my favorites.  I like the tune, I like the lyrics.  It's as if somebody read my mind and knew how I felt and wrote a song for me. - Rence 

Light and Shade

Fra Lippo Lippi

He will paint the light and shades
The colours and the trees
He will climb the steepest hill
Believing what he sees
He will lay down on the ground
Beneath the old oak tree
He will sleep forever
If you try to set him free.

Sail on the wings of a cloud
Where to, well nobody knows
And cry, cry if you want them to see
Die every day to be free
Be proud to wear the colours that you call your own
Be loud, speak out when you want the world to know
Be strong, hold the flame for everyone to see
Be real, if you want to love.

He will paint the endless sea.
A mystery to me
He will reach out for the sun,
Not dreaming what he sees
He will fall down on his knees
Angel touching ground
Takes him to the other side
Sweet love is coming down.

True Colors

This song has helped me a lot to recover from my last bout of depression. This song encourages me to accept myself for who I am because somehow, somewhere, someone believes in me. Please take time to read the lyrics. - Rence

True Colors

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged oh I realize
it's hard to take courage in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small.

But I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show your true colors
true colors are beautiful like a rainbow.

Show me a smile then don't be unhappy,
can't remember when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up because you know I'll be there. 

 

And I'll see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show your true colors
true colors are beautiful like a rainbow.